Imagination, abilitytoseeandexperiencethingsthatdon’texistorhavehappened, let’s imagine two cases toreflect a little, thistext, not like myothertexts, isstrongerand more violent, nevertheless, it isnecessary, I hadn’trealizedmyimportance in thismissionuntilthismorning, June 26, thedayofthefirst training class for youngpeople, where I couldsee a videoofhowanabortionisperformedfromthesecondtrimesteron. In thistext, I’mgoingtoproposethatyouputyourself in thecharacters‘ shoestofeelalltheemotion, findyourself open atthismoment, now, let’s imagine…
First situation – Love
Imagine yourself in the following situation, one day you discover yourself as a single mother, assume your responsibility, and decide to go all the way for your child.
In exams you cling to the child even without seeing her, you realize that her love is better than club love, better tan partying, better than aborting her.
Nine months fly by, it’s time to be born. He is born and looks at you, and so was your baby’s first smile, pure and immaculate smile, so innocent, so helpless, you will have to protect him.
Time passed, you’re at home, he looks at you and without thinking twice says: “Mommy, I love you”
Pure words that penetrate the soul, can you feel? This butterflies in your stomach, this heat, a thousand things you can barely explain, you can feel it all at the same time and without backing down hugs him, he kisses you on the face, this love can bring down a wall.
Three more years have passed, it’s his birthday and you’re going to the beach to celebrate, build a sand castle, get to know the sea, his pleasure is to be on your lap and have your look, he loves you.
When he gets home he goes to play ball, when you finish making lunch, he shouts: “my son is coming to lunch”, your love for him is infinite, he will never abandon you.
Second situation – Death
Imagine yourself in the following situation, one day you find yourself a mother without being married. normally, women find themselves pregnant at three months, where the baby is already half a hand in size and almost fully formed, the father says he will marry you if he aborts, you accept and call an illegal abortion clinic, where schedue your abortion for the sixth month, during this period you have to prepare for the procedure.
In exams, you cling to the child even without seeing her, you realize that her love is better than club love, better than partying, better than aborting her, but you don’t hear the voice of reason, and you continue with the procedure .
Three months fly by, your turn has already arrived at the clinic. Part after part of the baby’s body is ripped out of her womb, all that’s left is her child’s mutilated remains, she looks regretfully into those eyes, those hands, and now everything is in the trash.
Time passed, you’re at home, the man who promised you a marriage found someone younger and left you, you feel severe pain in your legs, and all you can see is the baby’s eye, which even mutilated and crushed, he looked at you with love and forgiveness, he can’t stop seeing your mouth, your little hand, and the worst thing, in your dreams he enters to say:
” mother I love you”
Words penetrate the soul, can you feel? This regret, depression taking over, your mind is now getting neurotic and according to studies, you are six times more likely to commit suicide, with no one around, all you wanted was a hug, but you don’t, because the that would have, you preferred to play by the vase.
Three more years passed, depression took over your body, strong hallucinations and voices of your son who died cruelly for you were stronger than ever, anxiety made you a sedentary person, soon came obesity, you who were once so beautiful , finds itself in a dead end, end of the situation.
Finalization
I still believe that as they ascend to heaven, these angels look down and say: I forgive you, I love you, feel my embrace, don’t feel guilty. I know my mom had a reason to do this to me, I know she wouldn’t kill me for nothing, I know these things, because I’m innocent”.
João Marcos Voluntary B4L